Wooaahh!!i miss you Toby!!😣😖😥😫😭 #throwbackthursday #tbt #pomeranian #bonding #nightout #withAika #imissyou (at Eastwood City)
I don’t know where, whom or how to say my feelings right now so i decided to put it here in tumblr.. Yesterday, I’m so so so much happy and had a fantastic night! Since it was our thanksgiving mass and testimonial dinner, all courses were there.. I told to myself that I should have a picture with my crush. But then, he was surrounded by pretty girls! So I begin to give up! Haha.. But thanks God, he heard my prayer during our thanksgiving mass! Yeah! I prayed to God to give me the chance to have picture with my crush! Haha! (ang babaw) ;) but still, my night was completed because of him!;) then after, we went to a comedy bar! Haha! They’re really funny though there are times, they got boring and some corny jokes!(but still they are good since its hard to make people laugh!) :))
But now,while typing this one, I’m so much confused! I wanna cry but I don’t want to be weak!:’( I just remember when my parents told me, especially my dad to take a 4 year course since before, I want culinary arts which is usually 2 years only or interior design! So they told me to take nursing! Actually nursing is not in my choice of courses! But still, I took that course! Now, I just remembered what my dad told me that when I graduated, I can do whatever I want! But what happened??? They want me to go to province and use my nursing skills and resign in my job! I have a contract and I wanna finish this! I don’t know what to do!!!:((( I’m beginning to hate myself, everything! The promises, the course(though I learned to love my course.. But right now,I hate it!) I wanna explore myself! To know what I want, my purpose in life, and to decide for myself! God, I wanna be free from this confusion! Please help me and lead me the way! :| :( :) mixed emotions!
I believe that someday, God will give me the man I need, the man who will love me forever and the man who loves God more than me! I’ll wait for you..:) (Taken with Instagram)